*Warning: not for the faint of heart. If you don't like swearing or negative talk then just stop reading now.
This is the internal dialogue between the two of me: Skinny Bitch (SB) and Big Fat Cow (BFC).
SB-Dude, you suck. You are fat, gross and are really ruining my awesomeness. I look awesome and you are supremely disgusting with your fat hanging out everywhere.
BFC- You just need to chill out. You are stressing me out. Why do you have to be such hard work? It is just food after all.
SB-You are making us a hypocrite! How could anyone believe I am healthy and eat well if I am big and fat?
BFC- A: your standards are just a wee to high. We are NOT fat. However, to answer that question. People don't expect you to be perfect. You will be a successful health coach because of your life experience and your unique contributions.
SB-Ya. My "unique contributions". What people really want is a happy, sunny person. Neither of us are that.
BFC- It is true. But we are real. We have always valued that, haven't we?
SB- YesYes, but can't you just shove over for a little bit? You have been in charge for most of my life. Can't I just lead for a while? I have only had one year!
BFC-Ya, and what have you done with that year?
SB- A TON! I eat so much better, I am so aware of what I am putting in my body and have more energy. I am not depressed anymore (remember depression, fatso?) and am sleeping better.
BFC- Good points, but still. CHILL OUT!
SB is quiet for a while.
SB-I want to chill out.
BFC-I want to honor our decisions to eat well and life a balanced happy life. I like us.
SB-ya. I need to be alone for a while. Can we talk later?
BFC-Take Care. Love you.