Friday, November 20, 2009

Where was I?

Oh yes, balance. Well, I'm looking at it differently this week. I'm looking at all aspects of my life. So, phyical balance? yep. Spiritual? hmm. Mental? nope. Emotional? see mental. For me, mental balance is predicated by the emotional. When I am emotionally out of whack then my brain spirals out of control. Often I forget I'm a women and naturally have cycles and emotions stemming from that. Once I remember that then this generally knocks the physical, mental and emotional back into place. Sometimes though a larger change is needed. That is where I am at now. I'm in process of letting go of the food. So now there is space for MORE. More in my life that has to do with things other than food, my son and this house that we can't afford to furnish. That is this week's challenge.

Monday, November 16, 2009

Too Hard

Sometimes when you are trying too hard to make something work you need to step back and get some perspective. Often going to my naturopath does that for me. This past time she helped me realize that I am working too hard at this. It is just a number. I have long put too much credence to the number which is why I didn't weigh myself for years. The number, no matter what it was, upset me. Why? Because it was a symbol of all the things I am not - thin, beautiful, perfect. So now, I weigh myself, but I just let the number be what it is - a measure of pounds that I am at that moment. If it is higher then I want then I'll just eat better today and see what it says tomorrow. But I won't worry about it until then.

Friday, November 13, 2009

focusing in

Let's see. More fruit! Less grains. Why? Cause grains make you gain weight. Wow. Sounds like "no carb diet", but really it isn't. You can eat squash, (yummy butternut) or potatoes or other fruits/vegetables made up of carbohydrates so it really isn't that. I kind of think I wasn't thinking about it the right way. My body doesn't process carbs really well in the afternoon anyway. But grains with sugar cause massive spikes in blood sugar and therefore weight. Grains can do it alone as well. I just need to think about it before I put it in my mouth. Which is really the essence of it anyway.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Staying Skinny

is HARD. I feel like I think about food all the time, or how much I weigh. I went so many years without a scale and eating whatever I like. I can't go back to that as I don't have the stomach I had in my twenties, and I honestly like being skinnier. However, it is hard. Do all skinny think about it all the time? Or is it just the newly skinny? Or am I not supposed to be skinny? Hmm. I'll have to think on that as I go eat my healthy lunch and prepare to make yummy seafood chowder... which I can eat because I'll eat a healthy lunch. Maybe some polenta fries too. Yah :)

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Found my Recipe

For the "healthy" cookie party.

Here it is: Oatmeal Chocolate Walnut Cookies

I am going to look at the cream cheese for options as well as possibly using agave. We'll see.