Tuesday, May 31, 2011

A state

Apparently I am happier when I am in a more confused, mostly ditzy state.  Apparently I need to find out how to be like that more often.  Because it is nice not being worried and frustrated all the time.

I often want to ask those optimistic people what they think about while they are thinking all those happy thoughts.  When I don’t have something to think about I just think about what I need to do, what needs to get done, what I should be doing.  And not surprisingly I begin to get upset, frustrated and depressed.  What should I be thinking about instead?  Should I be thinking about how I actually got up this morning?  That I get to have knee surgery?  That I got to have lunch with my husband?  Ok.  That actually sounds nice. (the last one, that is)

Thinking about the good things. Huh. Well, I might as well try it.  I know the just not thinking isn’t going to work.


  1. i am sorry to hear you have to have knee surgery. bummer!! please let me know when it happens. i would like to bring you a meal or some groceries.

  2. Thanks, Becky, I appreciate that. I will find out next week when my surgery will be. I just hope it isn't right before Josh has to go out of town!