I play a few roles in my life: woman, mother, wife, daughter, student, and friend. I have a hard time balancing them. Am wondering if right now, what is stopping me is the fear of adding another - working woman - and failing at it. I am already a failure at it, but starting again when I already feel like I barely get the other things done competetently. Maybe a part of my brain stops me from trying. Maybe part of me knows that adding something else in and failing would be too much for me. And it isn't like I am doing any of my roles very well right now. I frankly kinda suck.
I feel like so much is wrong right now with my life. Sure, everything is fine, but it is held on by a string. Maybe I need the opposite - a total life overhaul - I don't know, but it can't be just adding one more thing. That won't work. There isn't that much of me left. It is like that point where you pull and pull at silly putty where everything is finefinefine... OH! it broke. Toooo far.
Something needs to change. Maybe that something is me.