I didn’t really realize it, but five pounds is a lot. I hadn’t ever been five pounds over my weight before. Usually more like twenty… So I didn’t know how much it was bothering me until it was gone. I knew I didn’t like my body in clothes and I knew the number was high, but the number and I have other issues to deal with.
So after trips out east, Thanksgiving, Christmas season and cinnamon roll yumminess I just was feeling funky. I wasn’t really motivated to do our January cleanse, but now that I am in the middle of it I truly love that I do one annually.
I read somewhere yesterday that January is a bad and arbitrary time to do a cleanse. It is cold and that cleanses don’t really solve a weight problem. This I know. But here is what makes that not relevant for me. I needed something to change. I need the restart to my brain and I can’t do it with “just eat better”, Brooke. I need to purge my system of that weight that seemed more than just five pounds because it weighed on my mind and soul as well.
When I start eating food again on Friday I will be mostly raw for the month due to the Internal Cleanse that follows, (which I am really excited about, by the way) but this I know. I will listen to myself and my body and honor what it wants (mmmm, black bean burrito and a really good fiction book to read). And I will have wiped clean the old feeling of “bad” with my body back the way it is supposed to look. I feel freer right now (maybe partially high due to a lack of food) and I know this is me doing what I am supposed to be doing. Here. Right now.